So it is now the night before.
Yesteray morning the lovely and I tried to weigh my boobs on the kitchen scale. It was quite comical, trying to fit my breast on this small, round scale and still see the information panel. I had to get the lovely to try to read it as it was too hard for me to move around – it really was quite silly!
The weight wasn’t that exciting – they seemed to be hovering around the 1kilo mark each. I had a moment when I thought again, was it really worth it? Were they really big enough to do this?
I read the surgeon’s marketing material and there was a story from someone who had a breast reduction. She talked about how she had waited so long to do this for herself, and that it was a good thing to be doing. I think that’s how I feel about it too – that I am doing this for myself, so I can feel better.
Someone asked me at work today was I nervous? I have been, I wasn’t then but I imagine tomorrow morning I’ll be quite agitated. We have to be there by 8am and I’m already doubling the time it takes to get there so I can make sure we aren’t stressed about finding a park and finding reception.
This is how I manage it – I allow myself to control as much as I can. I don’t know any other details (apart from fasting) so all I can do is show up at 8am.
Tonight we enjoyed a wonderful dinner at a Canberra restaurant called Monster. It was so good! This is the important thing right now, to create some lovely memories to think about through the next few weeks. We’ve seen a movie last week and been away down the coast three times this year. Of course, our six week overseas holiday is very present in my mind. And I also have work things to nut out! So plenty for me to contemplate while I don’t feel like doing anything else.
It seems strange that after tomorrow, I will look so different than I have always looked. How will I react to that? How will I feel about my new breasts? What will I feel when other people react to my new shape? All these questions are still to be answered.
Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring,