When I have a hole I want to fill it with things.

If I’m unconscious about the hole it’s likely to be filled with food.

But one I realise what it is, the stakes are raised and I want to fill it with something bigger. Like a new car.

But what is the hole I’m driving it into?

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring 


Xena reboot – yay or nay?

All good lesbians should know by now that there is going to be a Xena reboot – a TV show written by Javier Grillo-Marxuach for producers of the original show Rob Tapert and Sam Raimi.

This gives me the excuse to post fan art like this

xena fanart

(Credit embedded)

And this

xena farnart2

(I take no credit. Thank you Google.)

But really, what does it mean to someone who watched the original series when it aired in the late 90s and has watched all six seasons at least three or four times since then? (And maybe will have a little binge watch to catch the lovely up as her watching was sporadic.)

We know that the original stars Lucy Lawless and Renee O’Connor will not be reprising their roles as Xena Warrior Princess and Gabrielle. We also know that the subtext will be no longer ‘sub’.

The head writer has done a wide range of shows with a variety of characters, including the recent hit show The 100 (which I personally love for a number of reasons, not just Clexa).

“ Xena will be a very different show (than The 100) made for very different reasons. There is no reason to bring back Xena if it is not there for the purpose of fully exploring a relationship that could only be shown subtextually in first-run syndication in the 1990s. It will also express my view of the world — which is only further informed by what is happening right now — and is not too difficult to know what that is if you do some digging.”

So we could speculate on what sort of show it might be – set here now, in the past, in a ‘100’ type world. But we can say that there will be some girl on girl action of the sexy sort – just how far they go will depend on the writers/actors/program time/what it’s rated. The original was rated PG.

But will any of that matter to die-hard fans of the original series and cast?

To some, a Xena reboot without Lucy and Renee is not watchable for them. I can easily see how they bonded with these women and their journey. Their relationship, to young lesbians like myself, was a beautiful unfolding story of love and devotion. Xena was on at a critical time for many of us in the 90s where we were coming into ourselves and coming out.

Many younger fans will not have experienced a time where LGBTI characters on TV were almost impossible to find and lesbians were almost completely invisible, except for (finally) Ellen De Generes, Melissa Etheridge, Sandra Berndthart and KD Lang. It was difficult being any sort of gay in the 80s when I was in my teenage years and in the 90s, it did get better slowly, but very slowly.

And then there was Xena.

When I first started watching the show, I was totally in love with Xena. Eventually, as I developed and the character did, I wanted to BE Xena. And fuck Gabrielle. Lots and lots of sexy times with Gabrielle.

Although I’ve had a lot of periods of time where I have supplemented my life with sex fantasies about various women (Jodie Foster, Jessica Capshaw, Rachel Skarsten), the two I most fantasised about where Xena & Gabrielle/Lucy & Renee. Singularly. Together. In future worlds. In their world. In made up worlds. I wrote a lot of fan fiction in my head about those two. Sexy sexy fan fiction. For years. I formulated a continuing of the story into four seasons of shows. Perhaps if I’d developed them further it would be me writing them now…

But I digress…

A lot of other lesbians of that era would have done the same (sexy thoughts).

Long before Jodie finally came out, we had Xena and Gabrielle. Long before the L Word, before Grey’s Anatomy, Lost Girl and before The 100 (and yes, I’m skipping a few shows here), we had them.

So a reboot could be great for old fans of the show or it could be a total disaster. The original show was campy and funny and warm and low tech. The humour was very important and the chemistry between Lucy and Renee was MASSIVE. If the humour and chemistry is missing, the show will be in trouble – and the die-hard fans will not forgive easily.


Once I saw the Starz series Spartacus (also starring the very sexy Lucy Lawless), I said to my wife at the time – ‘what if Xena was filmed in this style?! The fight scenes. The sex scenes. Hell yes!’

This new show has some potential for that, although it is a network TV show, so I’m not sure how far it will go.

With the promise of representation always comes disappointment. Will it take the relationship far enough? Will it just be gratuitous sex without the warmth and beauty of the original?

My personal take on it is that it will need to be a slow build with actors that have a lot of chemistry together. I can’t see anything much happening in Season 1 – although I suppose it depends when they pick the story up in the relationship timeline. My feel is that Xena and Gabrielle started having sex late Season 2/early Season 3. Xena was clearly in love with Gabrielle before that, but I don’t think Gabrielle was ready to realise her true love until after the whole marriage to Perdicus (ugh) was cut short by Callisto (and the fans cheered).

perdicus dead

Xena was clearly heartbroken by Gabrielle’s choice to marry but supported her anyway. Gabrielle clearly needed to come to a decision point and felt the need to go with Perdicus but I don’t believe she would have stayed for long. She was already in love with Xena, she just didn’t realise how much yet.

The tension of the original series was the ‘will they/won’t they’ kiss. They actually did several times and there was plenty of subtext, especially once the writers caught on in the later seasons.

xena kiss

Can two new young actors recapture this?

Can the new writers weave a compelling enough journey around them to bring about the growth of both women and the relationship?

And also, how will they deal with Xena’s bisexuality and obvious love/hate relationship with Ares? It was always clear to me that Xena swung both ways. Gabrielle was the lesbian in the relationship who had to deal with the potential disturbance of Ares (or Marc Antony).

Finally, are they going to have an inept and annoying but loveable Joxer involved? Personally he annoyed me but eh, whatever.

I’m certainly willing to give the reboot a watch. I just hope it’s as good as the original in the areas that it counts, since it isn’t Lucy and Renee playing the title characters.

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring

Wonder Woman v boys: Another review of Batman v Superman

Yesterday the lovely and I saw Batman v Superman Dawn of Justice.

I enjoyed it very much, although I’m not a fanboy so I don’t know if things were right or wrong in the story.

I enjoyed it because the people in it weren’t all ingénues. They had grey hair and (some) wrinkles and looks of concern. It was a mature.

I didn’t expect to enjoy Ben Affleck’s performance so much but actually he suited the darker, more mature Batman. The Batman gone a little bad. The Batman that had lost some hope for humanity.


I liked Amy Adams as Lois Lane. Although Amy is the actor from Enchanted, I’ve not really seen her in anything much else. This role she played seriously and I enjoyed the gravitas to which she bought to it. That Lane had now graduated to following up serious leads requiring trips to war torn countries (even though she still had to be rescued by Superman) impressed me.

lois lane

Meanwhile, the man of steel himself had also matured since Henry Cavell took on the role. I haven’t seen Man of Steel, the reboot movie, so perhaps this was already something that had pulled the role forward, but I liked it a lot. I liked the doubt on his face.


Jessie Eisenberg adds a jittery madness to Alexander Luthor, the son of Lex Corp’s founder. His fragility and insanity are well portrayed by Eisenberg, who you want to slap repeatedly.

lex luthor

Finally, Gal Gadot, whom I’ve never heard of before, plays the mystery woman (but not that mysterious to us) Diana Prince and eventually is called to reveal her true identity as Wonder Woman in the final battle of good over evil.

wonder woman

Frankly, I enjoyed the darkness of the movie. It has taken a different path to what I’ve seen previously, where there is no consequence shown for the people affected by the mass destruction of a ‘super’ fight. Although the focus was on Superman, the Dark Knight also has a high collateral body count in my reckoning, something he was not prepared to admit.

There were no distracting dalliances in this movie. The relationship between Lois and Clarke was mature – although I did wonder what the ten-year-old boy next to me thought of the Clarke/Lois love scene, all water splashing and giggling.

Diana Prince was no one’s arm candy and even Bruce Wayne wasn’t really interested in her except for a passing attraction. I hope that continues in the next movie. Wonder Woman has her own mythology and doesn’t need the Batman to ride over that.

I’ve been careful not to give too many spoilers here as it really does it no justice to know in advance what might happen.

Let’s just say that at certain points you really wanted the super boys to just quit it and get on with the real fight. Which is why when Wonder Woman shows up, it is one of the best parts of the movie for its subtle humour.

wonder woman 2

I liked this movie a lot. Ben doesn’t have to be sad reading this review.

bruce wayne

Photos not owned by me and used without permission.

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring


Sexy beast

Do not believe anyone that says that women in their 40s are not complete sexual beasts.

If your woman is not, there may be many legitimate reasons related to health and wellbeing.

Let the reason not be that she’d rather not because she is tired of doing the role you (or she) has put her in.

We are all guilty of this.

However, a woman who is relishing her sexuality is amazing to see.

Do what it takes.

Fuck her in stairwells or against the bonnet of a car. Make love to her in bed after dark. Make her stifle pleasure sounds in the shower.

Each woman’s sexy beast will look different but keep searching together until you find it. Perhaps it is your fingers on her clit as she makes tea in the  kitchen…Or your cock (silicon or not) in her mouth.

It does not matter her identification or that of her partner.

Do what it takes.

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring 



I  can never get enough of this view…  
Hope you have something beautiful to look at wherever you are. 

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring 



I very much enjoy my Sundays.

They are usually filled with chilling out, hot sex, cups of tea, hanging out with the kids, and whatever else we wander around and do.

So it is totally my opinion that if I had to work on a Sunday, I would be giving up quite a lot of leisure time and it would really have to be worth my while.

Which is why I support penalty rates on the weekend, especially Sunday.

If I’m lolling around in a coffee shop I want the person who is serving me to be happy to be there and properly remunerated. I’m happy to pay a little bit more (usually a 10% surcharge) for that.

Big Mal and his mates in big business and in parliament have forgotten what it might be like to have to work on a Sunday serving others. (I think they might have spent a bit too long away from the reality of not being served all the time, whenever they want.)

Oh yeah, I know those business people probably work on Sundays too. Well they aren’t getting minimum wage for their troubles, are they? They are on very good money to spend a few hours of their Sunday working.

Minimum wagers, people who are casual or part timers really need that money, and not only that, the penalty rates for giving up time with family, children and friends.

And if you want them to spend the odd dollar on Sunday coffees (or just groceries and electricity), then paying them properly is a good start.

Prosperity is when there is plenty for everyone, and that means paying people fairly. If there is no fairness, then society becomes unbalanced. Just ask Americans working for a ridiculous minimum wage how well they are doing.

I’m not a business owner and I know small business have very many drains on their profits but I can’t see how screwing my employees out of entitlements and a fair wage would help me sleep at night.

If I share my prosperity, society is better off.

Anyway, I’m with the people who are wanting penalty rates for out of hours shifts.

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring

The 100 reasons why LGBTI peeps are angry

Well, it’s probably not that many.

Spoiler alert.

It’s just that they just killed off another strong, beautiful and happy lesbian.

clexa almost kiss s3

That’s Lexa from Trikru, Commander, Heda and complicated woman. She’s looking at Clarke from Skikru, Wanheda and fallen leader.

This is where they are about to celebrate their love with some lovely kisses and cuddles.

Lesbians everywhere rejoice!

clexa kiss s3

(Thanks to Heroes and Heartbreakers website for the fabbo gifs).

But tragically an ad break later, the Clexa ship was sunk with a stray bullet from her own man.

It was a beautifully played death scene and we might have been OK about it except that so many other non LGBTI characters have somehow come back from the brink of death.

The  producer Jason Rothenburg has copped quite the social media flogging for this death. Fans feel betrayed by the death because JR talked up the diversity angle and Clarke’s casual bisexuality. Lexa’s lesbian identity was lauded.

But then they killed her.

Meanwhile, the story is that the actor, Alycia Debnam-Carey, was due to be on another show and had to be written out.

Well I’m not a TV writer but I’ve had a few ideas in my time and I’m sure that any number of different scenarios could have worked just as easily as her being permanently killed off. Like being kidnapped. Or ‘killed’ but with no confirmation, thus allowing her to reappear at a later time, miraculously saved. As per a number of other characters in the show.

Sadly, that was not to be.

But what can we LGBTI peeps do?

Not a lot really. Support good shows, encourage diversity. Make shows ourselves.

I confess I haven’t read any Clexa fanfiction but I’m guessing they live on here in this world.

Getting shitty and canning the show, the other ships or name calling is not what I’m going to do. The 100 is still worth watching for me.

For now, vale Lexa, Heda and vale Clexa. We kiss you goodbye and hope Clarke finds another strong, independent woman to fall for.

kissing s2 clexa

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring


I have some questions.

Why would the Australian government insist on spending $160 million on a plebiscite for marriage equality, that would ultimately cost the community $500 million all up, when most people fall into the ‘hell yes’ or ‘I don’t care’ categories?

Why is it that in India it’s such a moral society on one hand, but on the other, groups of men regularly rape and kill young women (and a baby for fucks sake)? Two that I’ve heard in the last week. What is with that?

Why is it that Facebook leaves offensive, racist and sexist pages up and bans pages talking about discrimination against women, breastfeeding photos and photos of Aboriginal women in traditional dress? What community standards are you upholding exactly?

What kind of organisation continues to block and oscillate instead of just admitting the overwhelming truth that they fucked up in protecting children from pedophile priests? The Catholic church is just digging itself a bigger hole and the old white men running the boys club just need to stop pretending that it’s all going to be OK if they keep doing what they are doing.

What kind of government cuts dentistry to kids to save some cash while allowing big business to underpay tax? The Liberal Australian government is so in the pockets of these people and it’s so obvious! The time has passed where you can pretend you’re doing it for Australia, Malcolm Turnbull et al. It is very clear you are keeping your mates good while screwing the rest of the Australian community, who aren’t invited to your posh $1000 a head parties.

Why would any government feel justified to keep regular people prisoner in appalling conditions just in case they might be terrorists or non-genuine refugees? For the love of Australia, just get them in and 99.9% of them will be back to productive citizens in a couple of years. Instead of being completely broken and burdens on the system forever with Nauru and Manus as their torturers. Yes, some might be terrorists but we are seriously damaging many, many people (including children, so many little children) just so we can keep out those very few. And might this treatment not actually grow disenfranchised, angry and damaged people who want to lash out at captors or perpetrators? It’s costing more to keep them there than bring them here and it’s pissing me off.

Why do people hurt animals? If your job is in an abattoir, then do your best to be humane. What is with the anger and psychotic behaviour against these creatures? They are feeding this nation, we should be treating them with gratitude and love at this final step (and all the steps in between). If doing this means it costs more  money, then so be it. And employers, maybe do a psych test on your people before you hire them.

I could go on with questions about my world which is not making sense. Live exports? No, we don’t need them. Rape culture? What is wrong with men (and women) who blame the victims? Body shaming? Who says your shape is OK and someone else’s isn’t? Climate change? Sure, it’s not real, it’s just figment of our imaginations.

What do I do with all these questions? Be righteously angry all the time? Be depressed? Be mindful that they don’t bring me down? Change what I can change? Vote how I can vote?

Wishing you all the happiness the Universe can bring